Rude Awakenings? (Day 10, MM)

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

Shaisha had waited for some of the morning activities for the camp to die down before sneaking over to Sylvain's tent, her footsteps muffled and quiet from the soft ground as well as her armor.

When no one was looking, she quickly checked that everything was ready... and slipped into his tent to find him still asleep. Still a late sleeper, I see.

Silently she drew the knife from its sheath and knelt down beside him. The knife she held close to his face, and her free hand meanwhile hovered over another sensitive spot. "Good morning, Syl," she said in a seductive growl as she leaned forward, and slapped him with the pommel of the knife to awaken him.

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

Sylvain's eyes opened slowly. Shai's familiar voice suggested there was nothing to be concerned about.

"Morning..." He said as the knife came into focus.

"What's this about?" He asked with a groggy voice.

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

"Raise your voice or call for help, you lose an ear. Make any threatening move, and your nethers recieve enough zap-power to knock out a grown man," she smiled wickedly, even if her voice was hard. She didn't ask if he understood, because it was clear she wasn't playing around.

"Though to be fair, I should probably give you that zap. Serves you well for being a womanizer." Shaisha sighed. "Chasing after other girls when you had someone who is much better than any of us, Syl... that's low."

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

Sylvain watched her as she spoke with tired eyes and when she finished he closed them again and laid his head back down.

"Don't have to tell me Shai... I'm the one who loves the girl..." He said, still quite tired and obviously morose.

"Come to take revenge I see... Go ahead... I deserve it."

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

"Man, you really are disappointing." She groaned in annoyance.

"You love her, and yet you're out chasing lekkus? What the hell you thinking, breaking her like so when she finally opened up to a guy?"

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

"Going with the flow..." He said.

"Or in other words, giving in to self-destructive behavior that results from turning my brain off."

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

"Yeah, you know, there is going with the flow, then it's ruining the best chance you ever had," she rolled her eyes. "A one night stand is one thing, there's no attachements, no expectations, no promises. Doing what you did is real shitty."

She slapped him, somewhat gently, across the face with the back of her hand.

"Is this weakling before me the one who's supposed to take down Baras? Don't make me laugh. I'd rather bet my credits on Layne now."

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

Sylvain just laid down on the ground and took the abuse.

"What do you want me to say Shai? I fucked up... big time... but I still care for Kris tremendously. I'm going to do whatever I can to have her trust me... even as just a friend again..."

He shrugged, "I may have fucked up my chances with Kris' forever... but I'm still as devoted as ever to see her safe and successful. I'd give up my life for both her and you... even if you two think of me as human garbage and wouldn't do the same anymore. No one is what they are when they are at their worst... I've been at my worst many times for the past few weeks. It's up to me to stop being so weak and useless..."

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

"Was that alien filth even worth it?" she had to ask, her voice turning hard and that sadistic smirk dropping away from her face.

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

Sylvain let out a sigh.

"Despite what you might think, she is a terrific person... I have only good things to say about her."

He then looks up at the ceiling, "But you know how I would never want to hurt Kris... I'm not sure anything is worth hurting her..."

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

"I honestly don't care if she has a winning personality to match," Shaisha rolled her eyes at the weak answer from Sylvain.

"I'm just trying to understand what the hell possessed you to do something so stupid. Kris looked like an absolute mess when I spoke with her."

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

"Why?" He looks up at the top of his tent, "If you ask me why... then I'd have to say... because they are different."

He chewed on his lip a little as he sought the words to communicate it, "They both provide unique and valuable things for me... For Kris, well you know Kris... she's strong, courageous, loyal, disciplined. She'd make a wonderful wife and mother for children... she's also downright gorgeous and a softy on the inside."

He then said, "With Moyr, it's more challenging. She's more individualistic, cerebral, passionate, and not in the sexual sense. She pushes me to be better, as does Kris... just in completely different ways."

He shook his head, "I thought I could balance it a bit better until I was ready to make a choice... I'm only 18 Shai... still lots of life ahead of me... but yesterday a bunch of things came to a head all at once and I fucked up... I fucked up real bad..."

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

"Age is no fucking excuse, Sylvain," she glared.

"When I was seven, I killed for the first time. From when I came to live with you, I've kept secrets, secrets you still don't even know; all to protect myself, and my father. I'm seventeen now and I know the difference between promising yourself and dedicate yourself to another, one who needs you so bad because her entire life is falling apart, and chasing instant gratification. That you couldn't at least stay true to Kris for, what, less than a month... Clearly shows you didn't care about her that much at all."

She was angry. Syl had betrayed the better part of their trio. If she had done damage to their bonds with her hand in killing Kristal's father, Shaisha felt that Sylvain had delivered the coup-de-grace to end it.

"There is no damn balance in that, Syl, that's called CHEATING. If you keep fucking up like this, because you think age is an excuse of your incompetency, you won't have your life ahead of you. Do you think Baras will accept that as an excuse? Would your father accept his son to act like a damn twat?"

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

Sylvain shook his head, "No, I do not and no he would not."

Her words hurt, but they were words that he had flung at himself over the past 24 hours. If it helped Shai to get them out though, he was willing to take them.

"I will change... starting immediately." He said, knowing there was nothing else for him to say.

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

She sighed. More stimulating conversations had been had with plants.

The knife twisted in her hand, away from his face, and she slid it back into its sheath.

"I never thought Sylvain Torsin, the one who always espoused efficiency and unity, would be the one to break us apart." Shaisha shook her head in dismay. "I'll be in touch, but only to help you bring down Baras when that time comes. When we graduate, I will officially sever my ties to the Torsins. There is nothing for me there anymore."

Even in her fear of loneliness... she meant it. She willed herself to mean it and face that fear.

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

Sylvain looked up at Shaisha with shifting emotions. He bit down on his lip as tears welled up in his eyes for a moment.

They then disappeared as he retained his composure, "If that is what you must do... I cannot stop you."

Then stared into her eyes with intensity, "But I will never sever my ties with you. No matter where you go... no matter what you're doing... I am with you. Even if the day comes that I find your lightsaber in my heart... I will accept it willingly, for I will not rid myself of you."

A single tear escaped out of the corner of his eye and sped down his face while it held its look of composure, "You can always contact me... I will never betray our trust again... even unto death."

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

"You didn't betray my trust, Syl," she said quietly, avoiding his gaze. "... You betrayed the best of us. You betrayed what could've been."

"Give my regards to your mother."

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

Sylvain held her arm, "The 'our' I spoke if is not just you and me... It's always and forever will be the three of us. Even if you two think that I'm garbage... Just let me show that I can be better than what you think of me... that's all I ask. We've both done great damage to Kris recently... despite having no intention of doing so... I gotta believe you can understand at very least the desire in me to make things right."

"She didn't write you off then... please don't write me off now."

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

She did her best not to glare, but it did come across as a scowl.

"When I did what I did, I owned up to it. I didn't beg for her forgiveness, or wallow in my own pity. I told her the truth, and more than I've told you, and I gave her all the space she needed. The fact that she came to me after you hurt her, I would say that says a lot about how much this meant to her." She breathed deeply. "She needed you, more than anything, to be that source in her life she could trust and depend on."

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

He kept his eyes fixed on her's as he replied, "I apologized as well. I manned up and took responsibility. There are no excuses and I didn't offer any until you asked me for specific reasons for what was in my head. I am willing to give her all the time and space she needs. She's not the type to be convinced by pretty words. She needs to see changes in behavior... Which I WILL provide..."

He then paused, "She came to me when her father had been killed. I had your back... and I had her's... Because I knew that you would never do something to hurt her again. She trusted you like she trusted me... For nearly fifteen years we've had each other's backs. We trusted in each other and came to know all of our strengths and weaknesses. I'm not willing to sacrifice all that we have because one of us have moments of poor decision making. If you are willing to cast me off because of that, that is your prerogative... but you know I am not the dumb-ass short-sighted fool that I have been as of late... at least not all of the time."

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

"As I said, I'll keep in touch, but it won't be the same, even if I have your back on getting revenge on Baras... but you will have to work hard to earn that trust again."

She managed a weak smile. "Because, you know, trust is like a mirror; you can fix it if it's broken. But you can still see the cracks in that reflection."

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

"If it takes melting down the mirror and reshaping it back into a form where we can trust each other again... I'm willing to put in the effort. I don't plan on just patching up the broken spots... I plan on being someone you can trust more than you ever had..."

He paused, "Because you two mean more to me than anything."

He pulled out his datapad, "Here... look at this... I penned it for Kris as I was going to sleep last night... but much of the message is for you too."

Sylvain pulled up a draft of an email that was addressed to Kristal and had not been sent.

Quote:

Dear Kristal,

One day is nowhere near long enough to work through the pain and betrayal that you experienced from me yesterday. There is little more that I can say than I did yesterday.

With the coming assault today, and the potential of our parting of ways in the coming days, I merely wanted to express to you my unending devotion to your protection and well-being. There will never be a day where I don't regret the pain I caused you. There will never be a day where I don't reflect back on how wonderful we could have been if I had not ruined everything with my actions.

The motivations and excuses for my behavior will never amount to an explanation why I prioritized myself over you. I was insufferably selfish and callous to a savage degree. I wish to assure you that not all men are as foolish as I was. And I too am not what my worst says I am...

I fear that our relationship has been forever changed for the worse because of my idiocy. Finding words to express my desire to someday be at your side again seem to be a futile exercise. I can no longer hope to be your partner and rock of support. There will probably no longer be the sound of little Serasai-Torsin feet in a home we could have built together. All of my dreams and hopes for us are most likely gone... never to return.

But if I may ask for one favor after nearly 15 years of friendship... it would be to never forget the times where I was not a complete jackass. For 15 years I have cared for you in ever increasing portions and have willingly given you all of myself. Please remember the laughs, the times I got us out of trouble, the times that I relied on your strong arm to save us, the times that I was a dependable and loyal friend to you.

That Sylvain still lives and breathes. For 15 years I have tried my best to watch over you, and be watched over by you. I hope for the next 115 or more years to be able to do that for you again. Even if your future husband Sylvain Torsin is longer in your heart, please do not expell Sylvain Torsin your friend. For he cares for you more than anything else he can imagine.

You will always be my Moon and Stars,

Sylvain Torsin

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

She read it in silence, as she also considered what he said.

"I'm not saying it's impossible, Syl... just... I've never seen her like that before, alright. She's even further down than she was when I told her the truth about my father. I'd give her time, but honestly, I'm not certain how she'll react to this," she said, gesturing to the email.

"Judging from what you're saying though, you're giving up on this twi'lek-fling?"

Sylvain Torsin · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 12:06 pm **Posts:** 2532

He nodded, "Anything for Kris."

Shaisha Vreysk · **Joined:** Wed Oct 05, 2016 6:22 am **Posts:** 2167

"Give her time then. Kris isn't one to anger quickly, and she's not one to forgive too quickly either." It was all she could do, she felt. It was still Kris and Syl that needed to make their choices and decisions.

"Right now, she's just hurting too much."

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